The Holistic Empath

When I times that I feel overwhelmed, I contact my Reiki Master.  She is very straight forward, tells me the truth, and she is honest.  What is so difficult is she knows all parts of me and knows how to handle me.  I just can’t go to my mom and discuss my feelings of my spiritual side.  Nor can I do to anyone else really except my hubby.  Oh, and my fellow ‘freaks’ that I have grown to love them all.  I am able to talk to them, but most I met on here where as my master has come and encountered my side on a deep level through my Reiki attunement.

With the birth of my son, I have found it very difficult to meditate or even do my Reiki treatments.  Luckily, she is so in tuned with me, she was able to tell me all the things I need to do and what to do and when.

The stars are going crazy right now so my dreams are off, I feel as though I can jump out of my skin and my mind is EVERYWHERE.  I’m not the only one this is happening to, so I’m know I’m not completely crazy.

On another level, I feel as though my emotions have returned.  I know I need to cleanse myself.  I need to meditate more, do some treatments, get myself back together. While pregnant, having two souls to attend to made for a blocked situation.  Both of my ‘sisters’, one my Reiki Master, one who is a Reiki Master, both knew where I stood.

Ever since I was told I am a powerful healer, I have been intrigued and can’t wait to finish my attunements.  Once I get things together I am going to finish.

I’m rambling and can’t seem to get my mind right to speak deeply so I may later.

I am getting ready to start picking a ‘Tarot of the Month’ for a local newsletter which I am very excited about.  No, I am not getting anything out of it other then the enjoyment of it, which is fine by me.

I then figured it would be a good idea to do a ‘Tarot of the Week’ or even by the day is I am good enough.

I think it would be a good idea, let me meditate on it. 

Oh yeah, I am starting to do that again…:)

Monday March 30, 2009

Lord Moncrieff, the owner of Tullibole Castle in Kinross, Scotland, has an interesting new project developing on his grounds. He’s building a maze to honor those executed for witchcraft by one of his predecessors.
In the seventeenth century, Tullibole was the home of one William Halliday, who presided over a series of hearings in which eleven locals were sentenced to death for having dealings with the devil himself. Moncrieff is building "a Witches’ Maze with the names of the victims etched on an elaborate pillar at its heart." He says the maze, made of about two thousand beech trees, will be a "shrine to secularism and rational thought."
Halliday’s court convened five times in 1662. Defendants were held prisoner until brought to trial, and once found guilty — because they were always found guilty — were strangled by a hangman and their bodies burned.
Interestingly, Moncrieff himself doesn’t seem to accept the existance of any sort of paranormal or supernatural goings-on, and from the article, it sounds like he thinks the very idea of witchcraft is kind of silly. He points out on his website that "Believers in supernatural powers were responsible for witchcraft trials." However, he does make a good case for the concepts of logic and rational thought, something we can all get behind. Whatever his motivation, I think the memorial maze sounds like a really nice idea.

My abilities have been increasing.  D said it would happen and it has.

Also, I have found out my hubby also has abilities which is WONDERFUL.  He had a pure vision on the way to work the other day and saw his guide in the process.  That is so great and I explained to him that he can either take what he has found out and run with it or block it out.  He’s very open minded and is like most, he believes yet is skeptical. 

Me and D are the same way in the fact we continuously second guess ourselves.  I have decided that once I move into the new house, which is charged with energy, doing a spell to help with us second guessing ourselves.  I also plan on doing a release spell on the next full moon to also help.

I’m feeling more, hearing more even though in whispers.  I feel as though something is crawling on me and look and nothing is there.  It’s always looking and fern, D’s guide, said to get use to it…..She is so feisty, I love it.  Amanda is the same way which is great. 

More later….Blessings.

D and her hubby came to our house and we went to dinner. Not really talking about the activity at hand. As though we were either avoiding it or letting it just build up until the time was ready.

We got back to the house around 10pm. My hubby went to bed being he had to get up at 6am Sat morning.  We started empting the items on the table.  D has a GORGEOUS 5 candle gothic holder which holds tea candles.  Fern told her to put 4 white candles around and a red 1 in the middle.

We surrounded the candle holder with ‘ghost stones’ as well as holding 4 stones in our hands the entire time we had the cermoney/seance. D’s hubby was the ‘note taker’ which he was actually good at.  I was impressed.  Either way we put the spirit board down, and started.

Initially, it appeared Fern was all over the board.  The glass was making massive circular motions and in a very fast motion. We did not know what to do since she had never done it before.  We received a few initials at the beginning which would be proven to show up and be understood again later.

The jist of the situation was it was a time for Amanda, my guide, to bring herself into me.  Both Fern and Amanda were sharing the board attempting to break down what was going on. 

Needless to say, I was told to relax and be prepared.  D then saw a shadow over my left shoulder which was Amanda.  she was preparing to enter.  She started and fern kept saying ‘wait, wait’ ‘she is about to speak, wait wait.  My first feeling was my whole body tingling as if I was buzzing off of alcohol or off weed.  My fingers were tingling more and more.  Fenr then said, ‘open all of your senses’ and about that time, my vision got blurry.   Like my eyes were trying to focus.  It was amanda focusing to look through my eyes.  I never heard a voice, per say, but did hear the ringing in the ears of the vibes getting in line to where I can hear her.  All Of this happened after midnight.  being that the ‘witching hour’ is between 12am and 3am as we were told……

Once I stopped tingling and having the blurry vision, we learned that the initials were a murdered couple which were murdered in the early to mid 70’s.  We are investigating that now as this is our first ‘test’.

I have yet to hear from Amanda, but eagerly awaiting.

I will share as it happens.

Updating…The board did not turn out as planned so I ended up going with a generic for right now.  About the time I decided to do so, Fern decided to spring on me and D that something big was getting ready to happen.  Also, I have aquired my own guide, Amanda, who is my 4th generation aunt who was also a witch.  Her and Fern have bonded together in helping both of us get prepared.  For what, I have no clue.

In keeping in mind that I have a friedn who is also like me, we have been talking to her guide, Fern, who basically ‘adopted’ me in my search in finding myself and what I am here for spiritually.  We had a great aunt of mine, Barb, who was trying to get through to talk to me but was too weak and evenutally backed off.

I was concerned about the situation at hand with in my family. Jealousy is the WORST kind of thing EVER. I admit I have had my bouts of jealousy but in NO way have I had it since I felt I have ‘grown up’

I pulled out my ascended Masters oracle cards and asked what I should do with the situation, or the person it involved. To my surprise, I pulled Jesus.

Jesus(Also known as Jeshua, Lord and Savior, Lord JesusChrist and Sananda)Christian and New ThoughtChurches emphasize Jesus’ teachings about love and forgiveness and promote these methods as ways to cure personal and worldly ills. Jesus was also known to be a great healer of sickness
Clear communication with God, Divine guidance and direction, Faith issues, Forgiveness, Healing of all kinds, Manifestation, Miracles

So basically, the cards are telling me just to send love and light and all will work itself out. But when do you feel Karma needs a push? Soon potentially. It’s hard not to hold a grudge when it involves someone, your step child, who has your heart.

I initially started the journal on LJ as well which more of my spiritual side. It’s to help in keeping track of my dreams, my BoS, and anything else spiritual related.

I had a dream last nite which I can only remember bits and pieces so I will write it down as i remember and post later.

I am still procrastinating in meditating which I should not be doing. I need to spend more time with my pendulum, as well as writing my dreams.

I will post more as I’m not busy here at work….

It appears I was in a building, taken as a house. All of a sudden, it appears there was a murder and several of us were arrested including myself. They went into the room, appears to be a bedroom and did the test for blood and there was markings everywhere. All over the walls, ceiling, door, hand prints and smeared hand prints. Everyone that was in there ran out of the house. I had handcuffs put up on me and went to TH and asked him to help, and he acted as though he didn’t know who I was. I said, ‘ so it’s like that’ and he said ‘yeah’. I then walked up to Brian E to help and he acted the same way. 

Ended up in a building where everyone that was arrested had to take a test of some sort. I guess it was to see what they would do in jail or wherever we would end up. The test I was taken was engine related asking question like ‘build a engine by puitting it in sequence’. Dad came by to talk to me and they got on him for attempting to help me. I then remember ending up in a car with someone, in the passengers seat and was following another car down a wide dirt path. You saw the tunnel beside where the cop cars were going down the other path seperated from me with a set of trees. All of a sudden another car turned the dirt corner, and kicked up dust. When the dust let up, there was a Y and we lost the car.

That is all I remember right now, if I remmeber more Iw ill write more.